Twilight

Ok so I'm standing here in line waiting to see New Moon. Never did i think that I'd get wrapped up in something like this! I remember when the first movie came out and I thought it was just silly. We'll a friend of mine keg talking about the books and I started to think that maybe I should read this saga everyone is talking about. It wasn't till last spring though that I picked up the first book.
Two days and two books later I was officially a fan. Then I saw the movie and was comentating through the whole thing. Its not very often that an author can create a story that appeals to all generations much less is actually appropriate. The books are a very VERY easy read but the story is so captivating it just blows your mind.
What a talent Stephanie Meyer has to truly be able to talk much less touch a vast range of people. Its no wonder that I am here waiting to get into a movie that won't open its doors for another hour and a half.

This does seem like an awfully silly thing to be doing on a Saturday night but how silly can it be? I think everyone has their own obsession and a good cult movie really let's you be a kid again. Just look at Pulp Fiction, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Star Wars and Star Trek. These are just a few with a massive cult following. It has been years since the last cult was started and what a better story than this?

So call me silly a dork whatever it may be but here I am waiting and what's worse is I already have two movies in my mind which I will be attending midnight showings. Enjoy the things you can and don't regret what you enjoy for you never know when you'll get the chance again.

Breaking Point

we tend to put ourselves under a lot of stress no matter what age or situation. Some of it is our own making some is our environment. But how long can you build on that stress or let it set there until you can't take anymore? Them once you are there how do you choose to handle it?
Well I about at my breaking point and let's be honest I'm not sure how much longer my rational mind will continue to control my animal instincts. the stress began when my boyfriend lost his job. I continued to believe that it wouldn't be that bad and put everything on the back burner. Well after a few months that pot started boiling. After we got the water under control its like a pot of grease started boiling and every so often as we began to confront the hardships we were ignoring the grease began popping.
Well now the grease is starting to pour over and instead of moving the pot off the burner I'm trying to just turn the heat down. Some how it seems I keep spinning that dial the wrong way.
I find myself on the brink of coming unglued and with one thought left to keep me together we will see how strong it is. Every once in awhile my tears start falling which tells me how ill react once I've finally broke. Violently.
whenever I find myself in a Stressful situation its like my emotions react the exact opposite of what my actions will be once I've boiled over. The maelstrom which is fixing to hit might not leave a lot in its wake.
As it is I've had it and am only containing myself for one reason. Seeing as how that reason will soon be leaving the uncaring side of me will be revealed. The fact is I will not be put on the back burner!

Kindness

"No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted."- Aesop

This quote makes me wonder what you consider as an act of kindness? You can be a wonderful and caring person gracing others purely with your presence. Allow others to strive to be better. However there is the Flip side of this where people become jealous because they've been forced to acknowledge there own flaws and are therefore threatened by that righteous person. So would being a good person and living to your best that you may inspire others actually be considered and act of kindness?
reading this quote you can interpret it in two lights. The first being that your kindness will acquire positive outcomes and thankfulness from others. However the later of the interpretations seems to be more likely.
We can do kind things and be considered a kind person and feel like there is a world of things wrong with our being. You may wonder how this is possible. Well to me what this qoute stands for is that your good deeds create action. That action can be seen as good or bad. To me as long as your kindness invokes change in others it really has gone unwasted. This change can present itself one of two ways and it all depends upon how open that person is to change and self criticism.
Your kindness can be returned as thankfulness, and truly this is what we all desire. But god loves to test the righteous and often the change you invoke in people whether directly or indirectly comes back as a negative reaction. others can act as they hate or resent you asking you to feel remorseful of your actions and condemning what you do.
Don't let this get you down though. This is a natural reaction and gods little way of testing your core self, as he loves to do. We are a very stubborn and lazy species kind of like a donkey when you think about it. There is so much room for personal growth, whether it spiritual physical or mental, but we stay in the same pasture and will only begin to move forward if pushed or guided the right way.
We naturally want to dig our haunch's into the ground and stay right where we are at where its comfortable and warm. Who really wants to step out of our comfort zone just for what seems like a tiny ray of light that things may be better off? As understandable as this is we must step out of our comfort zone in order to change and if we want any ambition for a better life we must accept that pushing and tugging and just step out of our pasture.
As kids we weren't afraid of change or rejection we could go out for a sports team get denied and keep trying. So why not remember your inner child and accept the challenge and become a stronger person.
Now I was wondering if a kind good and righteous person just living to honor themselves and that which is around them is considered an act of kindness. To me it is for he simple fact that by living as they do they invoke change in others. Do you invoke change? well we all do so why not be a role model and not tare others down. We will all be challenged and asked to change but it is your reaction that will continue to let that positive kind energy flow. So when was the last time you lashed out at another or resented them? Was it because you might have been that donkey not wanting to budge? Well take the chance today to turn that around instead of a donkey become a doe frolicking in the pasture. I won't guarantee you won't find a pot hole every once in awhile but you'll be exploring and having a great time through the cold and the warmth.

Daily Thoughts 11/17 & 11/18

its hard to obtain friendship when you've made an assumption so don't. Its dam near impossible when they assume about you. if u find yourself in this situation don't waste the time and energy move on cease contact and you'll be better off



how long will it take to be a requirement to have a college degree to work fast food? then what the heck would the major be, i want to bum it my whole life?

I do NOT know everything!!!!!

I don't consider myself a very outgoing person. I do my best to live by a certain code I've established for myself. Well if you combine all the points on my code you'll see that I have a hard time voicing my opinions, but for some practical reasons.

Some people take it that I'm not in touch with my emotions. Well to me most emotions are irrational. I like to understand myself and my actions before I can respond to a situation.
Take of this what you will, some think me wise others that I'm full of myself. I have a code that I strive to live by and yes I do my best to do everything right. I tend to be a perfectionist but in no way am I perfect nor do I think I know everything.

However I do think my self knowledgeable and have a general sense of a lot of things but let me stress not everything! When I learn things I like to learn all the possibilities/actions. From this info I then like to share it with others. This does two things it allows me to completely grasp the info as well as share my knowledge with others. When I share I have the possibility of learning more information about the subject and those around me. Again people think I know everything Nope I don't I just strive to be a great student in the class of life. So sue me if I like to sit back and watch my surroundings and not miss the chance to learn question and understand

My Code

1 first harm none

2 remember the lord is your father he never forgets and always forgives so make him proud

3 spoil those things you love because if you're loved in return they shall spoil you

4 do your best to be your best

5 give people the benefit of the doubt until their actions prove otherwise ( Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me)

6 you are the only one you can take responsibility for so live to be your own role model and hero
only your actions can influence others and if you live by your beliefs hopefully those that you love will be affected in a positive light

7 don't lie! if you make assumptions it is a form of lying so don't do it!