Pain

It's the middle of the night and I can actually say my mind is calm (as calm as mine ever gets.) I have a list of things running through my mind but laying here listening to the soothing sound of my sisters dog snoring is relaxing my whole body.
It's in a moment like this when I know im tired and have things that must be done I begin to worry about all that must be done. We all say there is not enough time in the day. Im proud to say I know there is and I just wish I could use it.
To be successful its all about management. I know everything I must do and have deadlines for it all but I have one problem, I can't use the time sitting right in front of me. I know its a sorry excuse but thanks to pain issues by 3 in the afternoon I'm practically dead. My words slur my eyes are barely open and I can't keep a thought in my head for more than a few minutes.
So everyday I find myself taking my evening nap and usually wake up when the pain is either worse or somewhat relieved. Does this mess with my sleeping pattern? You bet. But even if I do end up staying up most the night by the time I'm in bed I can sleep for only a few hours before my pain brings me back out of it.
What about pain management? Well that seems to be an ongoing job. So I guess my question is how do I stay focused and determined not to mention productive when I have this giant issue looming over me at all times? Even now I'm regulating my breathing because my ribs hurt and trying to determine if I should put my tens machine on to sleep.
What cruel games the world plays on us. I know I'm not the only one who goes through issues with health. Unfortunately the world doesn't seem to care or want to help a person in my position. We live in a fast paced society and if we aren't running as soon as we hit the floor in the morning we never keep up. So for people like me we better hit the floor sprinting and never stop for gas. It's no wonder the health in our culture is steadly declining. I'm so blessed that I have the opportunity to get some of this under control while I'm in school. I just wish there was something out there for truly disadvantaged people to help them get through life.
Yes there is social security and disability but most of us dont qualify or get turned down and end up working ourselves into an early grave.
A heavy thought but one that ways my mind every time I have to lay down, or miss out on an activity, when I do poorly in school because the pain is too distracting....

Thank you Sherlock

A typical night. I woke up from my nap (yes evening nap's) and laid here with dash looking at fb. Finally I stir enough to know that dash needs to be fed but is thirsty and needs a potty break, how I know this? His eyes. If you've ever seen me with a dog then you know how easily I can just "talk" with them.
With people you can't talk the same way. If you know how to look at someone and read them and see them for them you know how to work them. But if you did that to a human you wouldn't be met with open arms. Sadly I find joy and comfort in reading people. Have a five minute conversation and I could tell you what troubles you and what you're afraid of what pleasures you etc.
Now maybe I'm writing this blog today because I've been.watching and reading too much Sherlock lately or maybe its just time to express the real opinion I've built up over the years thanks to my readings.
The world needs to grow a pair and look at others instead of themselves. I have met very few people who look at others strictly from respect and wanting to help, not even to make themselves feel good.
A typical read goes like this. Your opinion of me, you long to be as strong as you pretend to be, life around you just isn't what you want, you do blank to make yourself feel better.
You get the idea. We have all been settling for things but why? What fear should we have to deny ourselves happiness. I don't care what your beliefs may be but in no way do I understand life than to find happiness. News flash It's ok to be selfish!
If we would truly put ourselves first we would be way happier. I know we've been trained to think and do the opposite but really think does that make you happy? You say well yeah, no shut up look inside you that dark spot you ignore that takes over little by little, you know your core, now ask are you happy with this belief? No.
So how do you change? That's the easy part listen to your first reaction. Think is the best benefit for me? Screw all those fairy tails you've been told and remember when you leave this world it will be by yourself! You came in that way at the end of the night you are alone with your own thoughts there isn't two people in there just one. That one person is whom you have to make happy.
I can hear all the Christian poke thinking that this isn't right. Let me sum that one up. You're taught repeatedly throughout the bible that you should remain single and in church taught that god is within yourselves. Now put two and two together, its ok to make your damn selves happy.
Stop making someone else happy because you think you can be happy doing so and go have some fun for yourself, if said person doesn't wanna come along I guess that's their problem.
Sorry this isn't the nicest of messages but hey gotta say what I feel is right and our world needs a wake up call. I love this world and the people that comprise it. We all want to achieve this notion of peace and in order for that to happen we must become peaceful within. Start by being happy, even if it seems wrong just do what's right for you. In the end we will either be blissful in our chaos or feel the wonderful sensation peace can bring to you. Either way doesn't seem too bad
Ok, the end, for now my rantings have gone on long enough.

Sexy pictures

As strange as it may seem I think every woman (maybe men) should have naked pictures taken of them. What better a way to boost ones confidence than to have someone look at those pictures and tell you how sexy or attractive you are. I'm not saying we should all go out and be in playboy but it can be a personal thing. No one but you and your lover need know.
It seems a little strange but honestly it is one of the most liberating feelings a woman can have. A memory that stays with you to boost your confidence. It may seem a little scandalous in some minds, but to me and many others the human body is a beautiful thing and what better way to look at it than in the nude?
We are all beautiful in our physical form and I think the world should be a little less shy and really embrace that. Just make sure you draw the line with your significant other so the thought of unfaithfulness doesn't arise.
Enjoy your body no matter how it looks!

Blessed be

starting fresh

hear we go another year another time same goals 
so now what am I supposed to do? I have the same goals as ever and no plans to fulfill them. This all seems pretty pointless if you ask me going round and round trying to better ourselves and never truly just being happy.
It takes a lot of work for anyone to just be content. I see no problem with that. I've been told that I'm just afraid of change but people never listen they just hear words. I am content to be who I am. I have my goals but I understand that I won't be achieving them by sprinting but rather by running a marathon.
So this year I have the same goals as ever (lose weight, keep living, love, etc.) But this year I have one (rather two) new ones: be patient and embrace the moment.
It's the 28th of January and I'm just getting to this but I see no problem with that, I do tend to be lazy after all. But I've forced myself to have thinking time (I know eek.) So here is how it is right now. It's 430 in the morning I can't sleep we are celebrating my moms bday tonight where I will go over my calorie limit yet again. As usual I'm not comfortable in my house, I'm struggling in my current class (a first by any standard) I've pushed my boyfriend away.
Let me elaborate on the last. I love Alan dearly but I have this problem, I still love my husband ( yeah I know its a topic to be disgust later, I'm sure a lot). Heath lives in Texas I am stuck in god forsaken Colorado. Our families hate each other, like mine hates him and his hates me. I was run out of town to find out four months later he was getting ready to have a kid. So now I'm a stepmother to a kid I don't even know. He can't move and still keep a position like his and I'm stuck here for school. We love each other and are still attracted but realize we just can't be with each other. So we decided to move on... Kind of. He is with cimm I'm with Alan. I love Alan, heath isn't sure about cimm but hey its his kids mom. We've settled. The story of Alan and I is a long one but not now. It's for the reason above that being with Alan another committed relationship that I feel my heart in pieces. I don't want to lose heath (yes I know I have already) not again. Not only do I love him but he is best friend and he has been the best friend I've ever had. If I'm with Alan Alan forces me not to talk to heath, or any guy really. Sorry I'm flirty its a personality flaw. But if I can be this open about my feelings with him you'd think he'd trust me but no.
So here we are a month back together and I had to tell him to back off me. Dear lord the problems in which relationships create, its no wonder god said we should just stay single. Really it makes perfect sense.
I guess we can only wait to see what happens. Well till the next time.

Blessed Be

The little things that make a moment possible

The moment of victory is much too short to live for that and nothing else." Martina Navratilova

This really makes you think, and not in a very positive light at first. But now that i've had some time to let this soak in i think i get it. Victory is this moment, what's next? Now i've talked throughout the week about staying present of the current moment and enjoying it. I believe there is still room to look to the future however. I mean if i embraced this actual moment, i wouldn't even be sure what key to press next.
It's about moderation. In the negative thoughts that this makes me think it pushes me even more to enjoy my life for what it is, because then every moment is victory. But i agree victory is a short lived emotion, just like that high you get when you first fall for someone. As short lived as it may be it doesn't mean you shouldn't embrace it. Just remember that there are other things. My day wasn't just wonderful because i found out my boyfriend will be in town for christmas, but for all the little things as well, i got through class, i'm getting along with my family, i have a wonderful dog, and enjoy my schooling

Remember not to be so focused on the exact moment that you forget the entire picture of what made the moment so great, because most of those things can remain present as long as you choose to. No matter what i have Dash and everyday he makes me happy, he is my constant, everything else comes and go just enjoy the moment for what it is.

Blessed Be

Allow yourself to have it

No matter how qualified or deserving we are, we will never reach a better life until we can imagine it for ourselves and allow ourselves to have it." Richard Bach

This is a wonderful follow up to yesterdays quote. Even though we want to live in the present we will always have goals. What better way to achieve those goals by just allowing ourselves to? I know that sounds nice and easy, lets face it that can be one of the hardest things in the world. But does it have to be?
If you take away all the material things that you see in your ideal world, what is the person that you want to be? We have been taught since we were children to practice practice, and that eventually we will get it. That's exactly what you have to do when you want to change something for the better. Put on that mask embrace the person you want to be. Eventually it won't be a mask and you'll have become that person you want to be. Soon after you'll look around and notice that those material things just happen to follow along.
Just like the lesson from the previous quote remember that you must embrace who you are in the moment, be who you want in THIS moment don't wait until tomorrow. Everything else will come. Love yourself and live for yourself in the moment.

Blessed Be

Who are we?

"To dream of the person you would like to be is to waste the person you are."
This anonymous quote was my inspirational quote for the day, and it really made me think.

In our world we are constantly working to improve ourselves and the things around us; but, what about what already is. I am trying to be a healthy beautiful individual, but if i let that desire consume me then i'm nothing more than a desire and i'll completely forget what i am. We love to live in the past or in the future. Well what about living in the now. So that's going to be my new personal goal, to live in the now.

Right now i am a paralegal student suffering from extreme pain with enough passion that i work through it. I am a beautiful woman with a loving family and set of friends. I am!

Sympathy

I lie in a house hold where everyone is considered obese. Along with the obesity comes pain. Personally i have tension headaches (i've had a headache for now 8 years), chronic migraines, tendonitis in major joints, torn rotator cuff, bursitis, costrochondritis, and severe lower back pain that the doctors can't figure out. not to mention the knee my dr doesn't wanna perform surgery on.
My father can be considered unsympathetic towards all of it, unless i'm to the point i'm going to urgent care or the er. He too suffers from pain and i truly feel bad. How can i show him sympathy though when he seems to not give a crap when his own family is sick or in pain? It's not just towards me but my mother and sister as well.
He plays the martyr game when he isn't well, and granted he does tough through a lot, but how is it he can't have a little compassion for his family when they are suffering? I'm usually a compassionate person when someone i care about isn't feeling well, but it's difficult to have that same compassion towards my father.
I guess some people are just that way. I pray that his eyes open and he can find it within himself to remember that we are in fact his family. That we would give him the care he wants and needs if only he would be able to show it to us as well.
I can take care of myself i just wish that the criticism would go away.

Back

Once again i'm back but the details aren't important. What's important is that i'm still breathing and that i'm decided to choose a life of happiness. I chose to be with the man that i've loved for 10 years now. As much as i care about him the point i've found is that i can be happy on my own. I realized i may never be alone but that's fine because i truly know that, if need be, i could stand all by myself.
I got on the site intending to cancel my account, and then i realized how healthy it is for me mentally. I may never hear from anyone but just to be able to put my thoughts out there is what a person needs at times.
Well it is 4 in the morning and lets face it i'm FINALLY starting to get sleepy. Til later

The Circles We Dance

We all do it in one form or another, and usually over the same thing.
We want love and companionship in our lives. Whatever form that might be to you. I've always pictured this as a grand waltz type dance. Everyone in the room spinning around the floor, wanting to dance with the same person. That persons name? Love.
There are a few of us blessed with the ability to find this person at just one dance. But, for the rest of us we find someone and, for fault of our own or theirs, what we convinced ourselves was love was nothing more than an illusion.
We go through the heart break, the confusion, and torment which follows. Then at some point we put ourselves back together enough to get back on that dance floor. We tell ourselves "i've learned my lesson this will be the one, i've learned my lesson." Suddenly, before you know it you're in the same situation as before.
But what did we do wrong? This person was nothing like the others at first. We keep asking and presuming that something is wrong with ourselves.
We play this game for years. Some of us give up all together, others accept that what we get is what we are stuck with, and others just keep fighting somehow. Then there are the few who eventually find "The One."
At this point in our lives how can we accept this is the truth? battered, bruised, betrayed our heart is just so unwilling to trust our intuition which has failed us in the past. So we turn our backs and keep playing in our little circle, the same type of person in our pasts continuing to infect us. Well as always it doesn't work out...
You're alone again.... but something is a little different. That person you walked away from "The One" well that person is still there. You start thinking what the hell is wrong with this person? But somehow you slowly become friends never making a commitment. You start opening up and find yourself happy, you have the ability to open up to someone without having this horrible sense of guilt placed upon you. But you just aren't there.
You continue to go in circles with your dead end relationships, thinking each time "THIS HAS GOT TO BE IT!!" Never is, but each time you finally walk away "The One" is still there. Somehow you haven't hurt this person yet. What's the deal? They must truly love you...
So how do you just take the leap? Can you walk away from the life of disappointment you're use to?

Well I'm going to try. I know who i love, who is always there, and treats me the way every girl dreams of. After over ten years we both deserve it. Yes I am terrified, but he knows that and i know he will hold me up no matter what.
I pray ALL of you are able to find your perfect one whether it be in your current relationship, or something to come in the future. Remember not to give up or give in we ALL deserve to be that crazy fairy tell happy, it does exist, it's just a little difficult to find lol



"My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to,
Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,
You never need to carry more than you can hold,
And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,
I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too" Rascal Flatts -My Wish

Fleeting Thoughts

Maybe I'm just crazy, well wait we know I'm crazy but have you ever noticed how many thoughts pass through your mind throughout the day that you would love to elaborate either in personal reflection or communication with others?
It's classic to say "if i can't remember its not important" or "if it matters it'll come back to me"
But honestly I've found that it's those fleeting thoughts, much like dreams, that really have the potential to open our minds and give us the ability to not only grasp but recognize new concepts.
Then the great part is when those ideas come back to us in "aha" moment as my teacher would say. There is a multitude of events that can jog that brain floating inside in our heads, like rambling on just now finally smacked the idea I've been playing with all day back into the forefront of my mind.
Being a person that has a brain moving at a thousand miles an hour i have to admit thoughts very rarely stay with me for more than a few seconds, if that at times. Like dreams in the time it takes to just roll over the most exciting, crazy, passionate, insightful dreams are gone. I've tried keeping dream journals, but lets face it i gotta pee when i first wake up and turn the light on let the pups out right away by the time i sit back in my bed to jot down that really cool dream i just had I'm lucky to remember even 2 that I've had in an entire month.
Now when I'm on my own studying, cleaning, reading, playing games, it's easier to grasp these thoughts. All i have to do is put one trigger word on a piece of paper toss it into my purse or pocket. Later it's great when i come across that paper i can give the topic the attention it deserves and then apply whatever it is in my life or share it with others.
But lets face it if you're having a conversation or out with a bunch of people it's not always going to be appropriate to write something down real quick. so what do you do? my teacher has taught our class a bunch of ways we could initiate triggers subtly. they don't work! well not for this scatter brain.
If anyone knows me you know that i just tend to ramble on at a quick pace jumping from subject to subject with very strong opinions, you'd swear i was Italian lol. I admit this is a major fault and yes it is worse in person than in writing. So the question remains, how do i cage those thoughts in order so that i may play with and free them later? it may be time to invest in a voice recorder and just accept that I'll have to be a little rude so i can keep my sanity. but really who knows...

The witching hour

Here it is just minutes before Samhain officially begins for the year. the power brooding inside ever cell of my body is almost overwhelming. Artemis (who shares my vessel) loves to take over around this time of year. The power, the magic that i am able to produce these next few days is stronger than i can imagine on a normal day.
The urge to dance to sing to praise cant be any stronger than the witching hour, and tonight of all nights while i still have control of my actions is indescribable. I suddenly know where all of Artemis's belongings are. The vale between the spirit world and the physical world is so thin and for those like me who carry such strong spirits this is the most wonderful of holidays.
Halloween can be a great celebration but rarely will you see those like me gallivanting around in costumes taking the night to party. We find ourselves busy performing the most powerful magic of the year. I've taken my day to prepare my meal my dances my spells, and everything else i need. i'm just glad i was able to get my homework done because i can't hold on any longer, i just wish i was able to take that beast out of my friend tomorrow night. everyone enjoy and those who truly celebrate Blessed Be!! Happy new year may you be guided on a path of light in times of such turmoil and aggression against one another. Most of all enjoy the next couple days and the celebrations we have prepared!!! It's time for Artemis to take over now, she loves you

Two Years

It's been almost two years and i'm finally getting back into my regular routine. I won't go on about all the crappy details of what has happened since then. But simply map out that i'm back in Colorado the only thing i have left is my baby Dash, i'm dating someone who is nothing of what i figured i'd be with, and i decided to go to school for paralegal with hopes of one day being a defense attorney.
The night before last i made an observation that the simple act of letting Dash out of my parents room to be with me was the highlight of my day. I am really starting to believe that as long as you can find one little joy everyday you can't be lost, your hope will never be gone.
I'm over half way through my first term in school and as exciting as that may be the stress of school, home, no job, and my boyfriend being 45 minutes away is starting to wear me down. Proof being that the doctor decided to up all of my medications. It seems to of helped i can think rationally and my emotions don't completely spin out of control. However, i just can't seem to find a way to fix the stress I'm experiencing. This whole weekend i've been trying to study for my math test on monday, well trying is giving me too much credit the most i've done is looked at my books.
I just can't seem to find a way to focus on something i don't even wanna do when i have many more things pulling my mind apart but i think i have some ideas. Let the listing begin!!!

• Two more weeks of this class!!!
• If i pass with an A i can help people next term who are in the same situation i find myself
  
• This class pretty much doesn't apply to my career
  
• If i can pick out the key notes then i can pass
• If i do a little at a time i can spend some time on myself!! or whatever else (there is a nice pile of sims 2 games siting to the right of me lol

Well lets see if i can do it, wish me luck.

Oh and my one moment today was my breakfast falling off my tortilla right into the middle of my plate lol such a me moment

Twilight

Ok so I'm standing here in line waiting to see New Moon. Never did i think that I'd get wrapped up in something like this! I remember when the first movie came out and I thought it was just silly. We'll a friend of mine keg talking about the books and I started to think that maybe I should read this saga everyone is talking about. It wasn't till last spring though that I picked up the first book.
Two days and two books later I was officially a fan. Then I saw the movie and was comentating through the whole thing. Its not very often that an author can create a story that appeals to all generations much less is actually appropriate. The books are a very VERY easy read but the story is so captivating it just blows your mind.
What a talent Stephanie Meyer has to truly be able to talk much less touch a vast range of people. Its no wonder that I am here waiting to get into a movie that won't open its doors for another hour and a half.

This does seem like an awfully silly thing to be doing on a Saturday night but how silly can it be? I think everyone has their own obsession and a good cult movie really let's you be a kid again. Just look at Pulp Fiction, Rocky Horror Picture Show, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Star Wars and Star Trek. These are just a few with a massive cult following. It has been years since the last cult was started and what a better story than this?

So call me silly a dork whatever it may be but here I am waiting and what's worse is I already have two movies in my mind which I will be attending midnight showings. Enjoy the things you can and don't regret what you enjoy for you never know when you'll get the chance again.

Breaking Point

we tend to put ourselves under a lot of stress no matter what age or situation. Some of it is our own making some is our environment. But how long can you build on that stress or let it set there until you can't take anymore? Them once you are there how do you choose to handle it?
Well I about at my breaking point and let's be honest I'm not sure how much longer my rational mind will continue to control my animal instincts. the stress began when my boyfriend lost his job. I continued to believe that it wouldn't be that bad and put everything on the back burner. Well after a few months that pot started boiling. After we got the water under control its like a pot of grease started boiling and every so often as we began to confront the hardships we were ignoring the grease began popping.
Well now the grease is starting to pour over and instead of moving the pot off the burner I'm trying to just turn the heat down. Some how it seems I keep spinning that dial the wrong way.
I find myself on the brink of coming unglued and with one thought left to keep me together we will see how strong it is. Every once in awhile my tears start falling which tells me how ill react once I've finally broke. Violently.
whenever I find myself in a Stressful situation its like my emotions react the exact opposite of what my actions will be once I've boiled over. The maelstrom which is fixing to hit might not leave a lot in its wake.
As it is I've had it and am only containing myself for one reason. Seeing as how that reason will soon be leaving the uncaring side of me will be revealed. The fact is I will not be put on the back burner!

Kindness

"No act of kindness, no matter how small, is ever wasted."- Aesop

This quote makes me wonder what you consider as an act of kindness? You can be a wonderful and caring person gracing others purely with your presence. Allow others to strive to be better. However there is the Flip side of this where people become jealous because they've been forced to acknowledge there own flaws and are therefore threatened by that righteous person. So would being a good person and living to your best that you may inspire others actually be considered and act of kindness?
reading this quote you can interpret it in two lights. The first being that your kindness will acquire positive outcomes and thankfulness from others. However the later of the interpretations seems to be more likely.
We can do kind things and be considered a kind person and feel like there is a world of things wrong with our being. You may wonder how this is possible. Well to me what this qoute stands for is that your good deeds create action. That action can be seen as good or bad. To me as long as your kindness invokes change in others it really has gone unwasted. This change can present itself one of two ways and it all depends upon how open that person is to change and self criticism.
Your kindness can be returned as thankfulness, and truly this is what we all desire. But god loves to test the righteous and often the change you invoke in people whether directly or indirectly comes back as a negative reaction. others can act as they hate or resent you asking you to feel remorseful of your actions and condemning what you do.
Don't let this get you down though. This is a natural reaction and gods little way of testing your core self, as he loves to do. We are a very stubborn and lazy species kind of like a donkey when you think about it. There is so much room for personal growth, whether it spiritual physical or mental, but we stay in the same pasture and will only begin to move forward if pushed or guided the right way.
We naturally want to dig our haunch's into the ground and stay right where we are at where its comfortable and warm. Who really wants to step out of our comfort zone just for what seems like a tiny ray of light that things may be better off? As understandable as this is we must step out of our comfort zone in order to change and if we want any ambition for a better life we must accept that pushing and tugging and just step out of our pasture.
As kids we weren't afraid of change or rejection we could go out for a sports team get denied and keep trying. So why not remember your inner child and accept the challenge and become a stronger person.
Now I was wondering if a kind good and righteous person just living to honor themselves and that which is around them is considered an act of kindness. To me it is for he simple fact that by living as they do they invoke change in others. Do you invoke change? well we all do so why not be a role model and not tare others down. We will all be challenged and asked to change but it is your reaction that will continue to let that positive kind energy flow. So when was the last time you lashed out at another or resented them? Was it because you might have been that donkey not wanting to budge? Well take the chance today to turn that around instead of a donkey become a doe frolicking in the pasture. I won't guarantee you won't find a pot hole every once in awhile but you'll be exploring and having a great time through the cold and the warmth.

Daily Thoughts 11/17 & 11/18

its hard to obtain friendship when you've made an assumption so don't. Its dam near impossible when they assume about you. if u find yourself in this situation don't waste the time and energy move on cease contact and you'll be better off



how long will it take to be a requirement to have a college degree to work fast food? then what the heck would the major be, i want to bum it my whole life?

I do NOT know everything!!!!!

I don't consider myself a very outgoing person. I do my best to live by a certain code I've established for myself. Well if you combine all the points on my code you'll see that I have a hard time voicing my opinions, but for some practical reasons.

Some people take it that I'm not in touch with my emotions. Well to me most emotions are irrational. I like to understand myself and my actions before I can respond to a situation.
Take of this what you will, some think me wise others that I'm full of myself. I have a code that I strive to live by and yes I do my best to do everything right. I tend to be a perfectionist but in no way am I perfect nor do I think I know everything.

However I do think my self knowledgeable and have a general sense of a lot of things but let me stress not everything! When I learn things I like to learn all the possibilities/actions. From this info I then like to share it with others. This does two things it allows me to completely grasp the info as well as share my knowledge with others. When I share I have the possibility of learning more information about the subject and those around me. Again people think I know everything Nope I don't I just strive to be a great student in the class of life. So sue me if I like to sit back and watch my surroundings and not miss the chance to learn question and understand

My Code

1 first harm none

2 remember the lord is your father he never forgets and always forgives so make him proud

3 spoil those things you love because if you're loved in return they shall spoil you

4 do your best to be your best

5 give people the benefit of the doubt until their actions prove otherwise ( Fool me once, shame on you; fool me twice, shame on me)

6 you are the only one you can take responsibility for so live to be your own role model and hero
only your actions can influence others and if you live by your beliefs hopefully those that you love will be affected in a positive light

7 don't lie! if you make assumptions it is a form of lying so don't do it!

NIA

I finally kicked my butt to going back to NIA last Saturday and again tonight. The class is SO wonderful, It's so relieving spiritually, and physically i know i must do my best to continue. Every time i'm there dancing i feel like Freya doing her magic.

It is said that the goddess Freya danced herself into a frenzy when she wanted to work her magic. There is no doubt when i'm dancing and letting the music flow i'm magical. The energy that builds and is shared is pure magic, it's no wonder that techno and clubs are so much fun!! the hard beats and constant flow are a natural filter of negativity, and the perfect equation for love

Blessed Be!!
Luna